Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Undeserving

What a year! I just realized I haven't even written anything in the past year....so I guess that makes me a pretty terrible blogger! I've now been in Korea for over two years. That's a bit scary and difficult to believe, but it's true. I started thinking tonight about the past year and everything that has been going on in my life and it brings me to my knees in humbleness. How have I, an underserving sinner, been so blessed with a great job, amazing friends, opportunities....the list could go on and on. It's really amazing to see what God can do in your life and the changes he can make when you simply allow Him to take control. I think control is really all it's about....and maybe a lack of faith. When we don't trust God and allow Him to work out His perfect will, we create nothing but chaos for ourselves. Of course I fall short in this area on many days thinking that I need to do something because God isn't working fast enough....but in the end I realize that His timing is perfect. He is never late and never early.....just always on time. Words can't even begin to express how grateful I am for this past year and everything that has been given and taken away. Of course there were times where I didn't think I was in ideal situations, but I know God was using those situations to mold me and make me into the woman He wants me to be. After all, He is the potter and I am the clay. I was thought of by Him before I was even born. I am His child, His daughter. Yes, I am blessed beyond measure by earthly things which I don't deserve, but most importantly, I am undeserving of God's perfect Son, a sacrifice for all of my hatefulness, pride, and a multitude of other sins. I praise Him for His goodness and mercy!